Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in christina's LiveJournal:

Monday, December 13th, 2004
12:26 am	yea so i havent written in this thing for a while...ive been too depressed really...until tonight...i got a wake up call... My old friend from 8th grade into high school called me out of the blue (i havent seen her or talked to her in over 2 years). she got arrested for having thousands of dollars of hard core drugs in her hotel room. they were her boyfriends...but the room was in her name, also the car which they found money and drugs in was in her name too. she took the rap for him (DUMB IDEA) and said they were all hers...so now shes practically homeless cuz her dad kicked her out and disowned her, she might be going to jail for a year. and she has no friends...and no boyfriend. obviously none of you know her so your def not as shocked as me...but to have a childhood friend who you were so close to, go absolutly downhill is scary. she is 5'8" and now weighs 89 lbs b/c of all the drugs she was doing... now i feel like i have NOTHING to be depressed about. I am soooo thankful i took a different road then her. that could have been me, if i didnt stop being friends with her. part of me feels like i could have helped her though...now shes beyond my help. i am going to try to get her to move back with her dad. im going to have coffee with him tomorrow...we were close and he still thinks very good things of me. he knows i was a good influence on her and hopes i can help her realize she needs to go back home. i am so thankful that i have a good family and a good boyfriend and good friends(whats left of them) im so glad i made good choices in life, and will continue too. to everyone: please please please dont get involved with drugs...it only leads to nothing and trouble...she just started off doing cocaine at partys...before she knew it she was doing E coke and acid almost everyday...she started sucking random guys off for it...i dont want to get anymore calls about old friends ending up like this. let this be a wake up call for anyone who needs it. because let me tell you...this woke me the fuck up! :) Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Monday, October 11th, 2004
8:25 am	Colorado!! well im sitting in Laurens cute lil' apartment in Colorado. When I look out the window in front of me all I can see are the rocky mountains! It is fucking beautiful! Ive never seen anything like Colorado...everything is sooo spread out...yet anything you need (food,gas,clothes) is always 10 mins away! Its crazy! and the malls....FUCKING AWESOME!!! they have the COOLEST stores ever...there are like 60 stores in each mall....and like 7 malls around here (longmont). when i first got here i was freaked out because there are NO old houses...only bunches of developments (they call them towns). In Laurens parents development there are 2000 houses (or what we would call condos) a fire station, resturant, school, and a lil' store. and most developments are similar to that! there are probably 20 developments in a town and who knows how many in a city. one of the coolest things to me is when you look out at the horizon you can basically see everything....like I can see 3 towns over....its nuts! the locals are so nice! ive never met nicer people! they all teased me cuz i have an accent!?!? LOL i would have NEVER thought I had an accent! :) so heres a re-cap of my trip: Thursday: got here at 8 went to dinner at Texas steakhouse ( where you can throw you food on the floor...they actually encourage it) lol weird huh Friday: woke up waaayy to early cuz of the time difference...sat on Laurens porch and watched the 7 hot air ballons right near her apartment it was really cool. went to the Denver zoo! me and lauren were acting like 3rd graders! it was a blast went out to eat at Red Robin...kinda like a TGI fridays but you can stand on your seat and dance! againg weird huh then we went drinking with the locals...I was really tired and got drunk way too fast Saturday: went shopping alllll day long and bought 250$ worth of clothes and shoes...and i look sooo hott! LOL then we went to a hardcore local show...it was cool...they sound like from autumn to ashes then went to a party with the band...got reall wasted and danced...the local girls REALLY hated me! LOL all the boys said they were real jelous of east coast girls ( cuz we are waaaay hotter and know how to party) Sunday: went to the museam and say some cool shot like dinosaurs...then just chilled cuz we were exhasted now im here and im leaving for the airport in 3 hours! Im really going to miss this place....but yet there is no place like home! Current Mood: impressed (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
12:35 am	i feel better... so today really sucked...but then I went to the Nashoba/Clinton rivalry football game with my family. I am so proud of my little cousin Chris he's a freshman starting out on varsity he did an awesome job. so did his brother, my cousin Stevie. It was nice to see them on the field together! me and my mom had a blast dissing Nashoba!!! I love my family...and im happy i got to spend time with them....it feels like i never see them even though we live in this same shit house...I cant wait to move! then i know things will be different...well goodnight and hopefully tomorrow will be better LOL <3 Chrissy Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Friday, September 10th, 2004
1:25 pm	thank god its friday NOT! i dont even care what day of the week it is....it still sux...everyday sux! i havent hung out with friends in sooo long...probably cuz i have none. Its my day off from work this week and what am I doing...writing on my computer...sounds like a fucking party huh. the sad part is that this is ALL i will be doing today im sure. Mat was supposed to help me fix my brakes and bring Ashton (our kitty) to the vet...but now hes hanging out with Tony....getting too stoned to care. I am so sick of everything.. aweskfjhrsdialutyh3qiwp4reuhtgfksdja AHHHHHHH. yea sorry i was letting some frustration out on my keyboard.... anyways im too pist/upset to even type about it on here anymore so bye.... i wish i could download a NEW FUCKING LIFE! Current Mood: frustrated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
12:23 am	i feel pathetic... i just got back home after spending the last 4 days at my boyfriends... being there just makes life easier i was there cuz i got in an argument with mom and dad... i hate fighting with them it really makes me down nothings ever good enough for them im never good enough for them it all started cuz i got an incomplete last semester... then i couldnt make it up this summer cuz the teacher goes to florida ALL summer so now my financial aid is cancelled! so now i cant afford classes this semester so yup now im a loser whos not in school right now and works at shaws full-time i guess life could be worse but right now it seems like it is the worst i miss Lauren more than ever cuz i have nobody to talk to i wish she never moved i wish i tried harder in high school i wish i had money to take dance classes i wish my parents wouldnt be so hard on me and i wish i could just leave this place and start a new life i feel so alone i feel so worthless i feel empty Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
1:16 am	my horoscope... Aries Horoscope for 8/30 - 9/5 This week your leadership skills bring a stalled project to a done deal. Bask in your share of the group's recognition when it comes and humbly accept your role in the success. Your efforts will not go unnoticed and someone could make you an offer in the near future because of your actions now. Celebrate with loved ones. Other's energies support your efforts at making changes, especially those that will help you to let go of an unhealthy habit. You have the inner resources to go it alone if necessary, but someone close to you could benefit from your example and encouragement. The buddy system could strengthen your own resolve to conquer this habit and give your ideas about replacement activities. Take it one day at a time. This horoscope provided by Astrology Source. Learn about your inner self, friends, and lovers. Get your free blog ready horoscope for this week at Blogthings. i like the last one :) anyways...so today I worked for 4 hours alone for the first time...and i closed the kitchen all by myself...im pretty proud of myself...and i did a damn good job :) Current Mood: high (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
10:43 pm	losing more friends... well today my friends guy, nick, and kyle left to move to Cali...guy is going to try to make it in hollywood...nick is going to Berkley to study music (guitar) and kyle is going for art and music. I wish them all the best of luck! i am going to miss them soooo much. Guy was like a big brother. Ive known Nick for 5 years...without him i dont know if I would have made it through high school...and kyle was a good friend. I am so sad right now...just a couple months ago my best friend Lauren moved to Colorado...and im still lost...now three more friends are gone...it all seems so unreal...i guess thats just part of getting older...not to sound cliched...well im going to get to bed now...goodnite all...and goodluck to Guy Nick and Kyle...be safe and most of all have fun!! xoxo Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
12:52 am	2 awesome years! today was me and mat's two year anniversary...and we went out to dinner...it was sweet :) i cant belive its been two years already...but its been a great two years and hopefully many more to come :)i just got home from my friend Chris Wares house...he had a bonfire and he owns a huge apple orchard where we were off roading...crazt shit LOL...but im sleepy now goodnite Current Mood: sleepy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
8:45 pm	yay! my first lj entry! :P Current Mood: energetic (Comment on this)